Sean I was heartbroken to find out this world lost such a beautiful man... / Nia Cannon-Hawkins (Friend) Sean,
I was heartbroken to learn of your departure from this world, through a google search of your name today. Though I haven't talked to you in years, words could never express the impact you had on my life, the gratitude I have always held in my heart for how you literally saved my life, you were even partially responsible for me marrying the wonderful man I am still with today.
Childhood memories are flooding my heart and mind right now and I pray you are in peace. I can tell from the tribute on this beautiful site that you've touch many lives for the better and many got to know the great person you were. I am so angry with myself and the world right now for all of the times over the years I thought of you but never reached out to say a Hi and Thank You. I can only pray, you can some how read or feel these words now.
Although late, my sincere condolances to all of your loved ones. I know you are a person that will never be forgotten in the hearts of many.
Nia
Free As a Bird. / Marc Harrison (Big Brother ) My Bro. My words escape me. I still..after almost 3 years, cannot believe that you have left me. I want you to know that I am tryin' I am REALLY tryin'. Me and God have been wrestlin' with each other ever since you left. You know had I hadnt stpped foot in a church or prayed until september of last year. Until then, I was very very very angry at 'God.' You know that me and mine have since returned to church (which is in and of itself a true miralce), but now I am just just plain angry at 'God' instead of the 'very-very-very' angry stuff. I want to love God more. But I dont know how. I want to trust God in His decision to remove you from this earth..but I dont know how. My heart aches. But I want to believe that you are free. If I KNEW you were free..and that you acknowledged that I love you and am just laid bare by this whole thing..I think I could move on a little better. I want to live life..but I dont know just HOW to just yet.
It was overwhelming / Celia Hi, Love!
It was nice visiting you last week. something amazing happened. I began the Holy Rosary at the entrace of Mt. Olivet, followed a pair of foot prints in the snow which lead me to your resting place and once I arrived to your grave I was on the last prayer and finished the rosary with you. Love, did you know that your birthday lands on the day of the Rosary! Isn't that just awesome. The girls want to keep your nephew, and Laura is having him stay over. Isn't that neat. My family says HI. I miss you, so much. I'm happy I finally made it to you. I needed that just being there was sad and joyful at the same time. I can't wait to see you again. oh and before I forget thanks for the visits. Laura feels the same way too. Love, I love you and I'm still afraid. God Bless you and rest in peace. Love ya!
missing you... / Celia
I was over Laura's the other day. . She call's me "Chela" quite a bit. When she does so, I hear you. It brings me joy, and yet I cry. I even got to meet some of your friends They miss you too and say"Hi". Zed is just as goofy as he's ever been. his brother looks nothing like him. Quinton is so much like you. he loves Plants! He has gray's too. Don't worry I didn't flirt...heehee! They were all happy to see me, I guess because they saw you in me. They spoke about your early years and the silly things you all would do. I liked them all. they are nice and kind, just like you. I guess that's why you have them as friends. They invited over when ever and to call when I needed help. Gee's Love there like you. You love to help people. Just like Quinton said, "Sean was here to help those in need ... that was his purpose" You surely did fullfil that. I ,as all those you touched in life, miss you dearly. You shed so much light in my life ,lifted me up and inspired me. you were my hope. my only hope. like the "force" in StarWars. I've been watching the movies lately. There so good. "Luke, I am your father"..."Noooooo!" It's awesome! Come visit me Love, stop by any time. just don't sneek up on me. silly butt!
IM so tired. / Marc Harrison (Big Brother ) Dear Sean, Please allow me to be perfectly brutal and honest....Im soo tired of this grief. Im tired of you being dead. I dont know how to handle this. I am a changed person because of this. Sometimes its for the good. Sometimes its for the bad. I dont think this was supposed to have happened and some days I just pray to God that I am dreaming. That I will wake up and that I will be back in my bed at my old house and that you will still be alive when I wake up. I dont know where I am gonna find the strength to continue being a human being. I want my brother back. I want you back. I want to hear your smart ass mouth bitch about something. I miss hearing your voice on my voicemail. I still have the very last email you sent to me. I will never erase it. I wish you could meet your neices and despite your tough exterrior, I know that they would charm the pants off of you! Especially Anjali..she has your smart mouth, pig-headedness, and strength. Sean..wherever you are...please remember me...I remember you everyday in my heart. I dont know how to solve 'this.' I dont know how to fix 'this.' I want to solve this and I want to fix 'this.' Sometimes I beg God to please have mercy on me and please bring you back. I promise him that I have learned whatever lesson that he wants me to learn. I promise him that if he brings you back that I will be good. But I guess thats bargaining the impossible. Even God cannot (and WILL not) bring you back. And I am so incredibly pissed and hurt that he would allow my heart to be broken in such a way.
Gone only from my Sight! / Celia
I am standing on the seashore, suddenly a ship by my side spreads her white to the morning breeze, and starts out for the blue ocean.
She is an object of beauty and strength, and I stand and watch her until at length she is only a ribbon of white cloud just above where sea and sky mingle with each other.
Then someone at my side says, "There ! She's gone!
Gone where? Gone from my sight--that is all. She is just as large in mast and hull and spar as she was when she left my side, to the place of destination. Her diminished size is in me, not in her, and just at the moment when someone at my side says, "There! She's gone!" there are other voices ready to take the glad shout, "There! She comes!"
And that is dying. Words found in the wallet of Colonel Marcus, of the Israeli Army, when he was killed in action on June 11, 1948.
Love you soon I will say "There! She comes!" I Love you...
Jesus is the Reason for the Season! / Celia Hi, love. I'm going to visit your mom for x-mas. this will be fun. :) I also, can't wait to see our nephew. He's so cute just like his uncle (wink,wink). Laura stopped by the other night and brought me a neat gift, an outdoor inflattable x-mas charosel. the kids love it! Everyone at home says HI and totally miss you. I can't wait to visit you this week, it'll be loads of fun. X-mas is not the same without you, but I keep on trying. I have my own place now. it's ok. no big thing. I actually would love to stay over moms (Diane) place for a few days. I hope she'll take me. My dad is next to me. he's goofy. he still calls you Chano...heeheehee! Good night love and Merry Christmas the Lord has come! ps Let's keep Christ in Christmas. XOXO
Hey Sean / Juanita Curtis (Aunt) Hey Sean, theres not much going on here in Chicago, I just stopped in to say hey, I kinda felt that you would be by to see everyone at this time of the year for thanksgiving. I can tell when you stop by whenever I baby sit your nephew, because he laughs at an empty sofa then he slowly looks up to a corner in the ceiling. take care Sean and keep your dukes up. Juanita
Thanksgiving/ Marc Harrison (Brother) Dear Sean, I love and miss you so very much. The holidays aren't the same without you. Today is Thanksgiving and also your little neice's birthday. She is now 4 years old. I really wished I could have introduced her to her 'unkee Sean' , but perhaps you've introduced yourself already ( I KNOW how you are..lol). But on this thanksgiving, I am thankful that I knew you and that you were MY brother. I miss you so much sometimes I dont know what to do with myself. I dont know how to get through this, but I think God is helping me a little bit.
A Christmas ... / Celia
Go, tell it on a mountain, over the hills and every where; Go, tell it on the mountain That Jesus Christ is born! ... (Go Tell it on a Mountain).
I don't know what to write to you...I'm a tad bit blank at the moment, but believe me, I am truly filled with your love...Merry Christmas the Lord is born!
ps Elva(the nice one) was Laura's secret santa....shhh! I told her it was me...heeheehee!!!
XOXO
Hey Sean / Juanita Curtis (Aunt) Hey Sean, I did remember that you left us last year this time, . but most times I still cant believe it, I kinda still think you are at work or in the old neighborhood with that pretty girl I say you with last ..Celia. She is such a nice girl. ., now I cant turn this italics off, pls stop playing with my computor. . this has never happened before. ok, . Now, guess what, its off, I knew you would be around my computor. Things must be getting better for you and for me as well. well, we still miss you, take care of yourself and if there is a second time around and you are on this earth, please enjoy it. ..Juanita
Your always on my mind.... / Celia Hi, it's been a while since I saw infront of me...I need to be with you and soon I'll be God just has to give the notice. I've seen baby Sean. he's handsom...love ya!
Free As A Bird. / Marc Harrison (Brother) Free Bird If I leave here tomorrow Would you still remember me ? For I must be trav'ling on now 'Cause there's too many places I've got to see
Chorus But if I stayed here with you girl Things just couldn't be the same 'Cause I'm as free as a bird now And this bird you'll never change And this bird you cannot change And this bird you cannot change Lord knows I can't change
Bye, bye baby it's been a sweet love Though this feeling I can't change But please don't take it so badly 'Cause the Lord knows I'm to blame
No Fate But What We Make. / Marc Harrison (Big Brother ) Sean, its been a year now and my heart is still broken. I dont know why this has happened, why this had to happen, or any good that comes from this mess. I do know that I miss you alot. I do know that I am very angry. Im such a different person emotionally and in my thoughts that I dont recognize myself sometimes. My faith is undergoing a challenge with all of this happening. I wish there was something I could have done to protect you..after all..thats what Big Brothers do. I never had a chance to say goodbye. You never got a chance to meet your wonderful nieces and nephews here in Texas. I dont know why 'God' has allowed this to happen. Sometimes, I think that world was made, and then was left to itself. There is no mercy. There is no redeption. There is no salvation. The only fate we have is what we make.
Your Memory Still Lives On.... / Karen Nelson (Friend) Time continues to march on and nothing stays the same. However, your memory is unchanging and everlasting. Continue to shine your light where ever you are.
You came to visit.... / Celia Sean thanks for stopping by once again. the thrill was overwhelming. you came to me in a church song "Celtic Song of Farewell": May choirs of angels lead you into paradise- and may the martyrs come to welcome you- to bring you home into the holy city- so you may dwell in new Jerusalem. May holy angels be there at your welcoming with all the saints who go before you there - that you may know the peace and joy of paradise that you may enter into everlasting rest. How wonderful was this...God Bless you Sean my Love!
This sums it all up... / Marc Harrison (Brother) Looking back on the memory of The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone For a moment all the world was right How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything For a moment wasn't I a king But if I'd only known how the king would fall Hey who's to say you know I might have chanced it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd of had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance
woe is me... / Celia you would constantly say this, as poet would. Sean I continue to think about our future plans, I am certain we will accomplish them in our true home, in the Kingdom of God. He will shower us with blessings! I await our reunion... we will be happy Love, together for eternity. My family send their repects, as well as, prayers to you and your loved ones. Say hello to my grandparents...I'll visit you soon. Love always Celia.
hey sean, / Juanita Curtis (aunt) hey sean, i guess you might know that I was babysitting with little sean over the weekend and once again he seemed to know that you were here. he was just staring at the ceiling and walls again, sometimes he would laugh and sometimes he would seem to be annoyed ( you must have been playing with him too much). and as you may know he is a hand full., bad and rugged, . he can take a fall with the best of them and get back up laughing. pretty soon he will be walking . that should be fun. If you see puppy ruby and prince, please take care of them and let them know that i thought i was doing the best thing for them and for me but it didnt turn out right. I love you all. Juanita
I first met Sean when he was still a boy. I watched him become a man. Not just a man but a man I molded myself after. He was cool, confident, and Intellegent. He stood by his beliefs and would argue those beliefes to anyone nomatter there status. His passing is a hard pill to swallow. He will forever be missed and loved by me and my family. I stand in the comfort in knowing that when I pass to the other side he will be there to greet me along wiht other family and freinds who have crossed the invisible barrier between life and eternal life. I also know that we will talk mad trash because the last 10 games of chess we played he kicked my ass. I miss you bra tell Pac and Biggie I said what up and I will see you when God tells me it is my time. Love , Peace and Happiness to the Harrison Curtin family. Darren, Brand, and Jazmin Harmon
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